3hours 40 today x_x

Sometimes, I'm told that my time is precious. Sometimes, those who tell me that will go and waste my time. are they disrespecting me on purpose, or do they just not get it? i have too much faith in people, i think they don't know. ah well!

what i'm meaning by this, is i had a bit of time taken from me, which was sprung on me out of nowhere. my greatest fear! i wrote about it just a day or two ago :P i get that things come up, sometimes i'm going to be needed. They could at least apologize =w=

it's not a good reason to not have drawn today, though. I did wake up late, and I did take a nap. staying in bed all day has taken much much more time from myself than any task put on me by others. and even when i'm up and free, i procrastinate more.

i wish i were in another world. maybe one where i was magically motivated all the time! maybe one where I have ppl to help me along. some kind of change, idk. this is a lot of sadposting >_> i don't feel that bad today, honest. but at the end of the day, when I zoom out to say where i've gone and where i'm going, it's hard not to be sad at how I'm not moving! it's not a good prognosis for my trajectory.

everyone deserves the love and help they need to move forwards in life. i don't know if i'm bitter that i don't have that? if i would move forwards a bit, i could get that. hey wait

as a chirp on the wire,
Goodnight! <3